02/09/2020
I know it’s been a long time since I’ve posted on a regular basis. To be honest I lost all my creative energy moving to Denmark. All the stress and anxiety of this move and getting the boys settled zapped any motivation and energy to create. It was a hard first year. Probably the hardest since the first year after the boys were born. I had to mourn the life we have created for ourselves in amsterdam in the same way I had to mourn for that woman I was before I had kids. I’ve had to go on antidepressants and get therapy. I doubted every decision we made. I doubted myself, my worth, my talent. I tell you this because I know a lot of you go through this and feel similar and you feel ashamed that you can’t just snap out of it. Sharing this is not easy. It’s downright scary but I hope that by sharing I can help myself and others shed the stigma of mental illness.
Things are improving now. I feel better. The boys are happy and feel safe and secure here. Which makes a huge difference in how I feel. Now I have some mental space to give back to my creative process. I have been writing my cookbook for about 4 years now and am making it my goal to finish it this year. I want to get back to photography and find my love of recipe development again. I’m writing all this down and putting it out there in the world. You have all supported me so much during this process and I really appreciate it. I hope we can continue to build our community and support each other. Now on to the good stuff:
All these roasted tomatoes are going to be blended with coconut milk to make the creamiest most delicious late summer soup. ❤️❤️