09/09/2026
At 39, a mum of 3, and having been a mum for 22 years, I’m finding myself feeling incredibly frustrated lately.
I’ve spent 4 years at university. I’ve worked hard, developed skills, found passions, and put so much dedication into building a future that feels meaningful to me. I have creative dreams that I genuinely want to fulfil, things I know I’m capable of doing and things that light a fire in me.
But then there’s reality.
Bills still need paying. The essentials still need buying. And sometimes, passion and dreams have to take a back seat while you try to simply make ends meet.
What makes it harder is feeling let down by the very services and opportunities that are supposed to help people move forward.
I recently turned up to a job interview, only to find that the woman interviewing me hadn’t turned up. No message. No apology. Just me sitting there, wondering why I’d bothered putting in the effort.
And honestly? It’s exhausting.
Not because I don’t believe in myself. I do.
Not because I’ve given up. I haven’t.
But because sometimes you can be doing everything you’re supposed to do…studying, gaining skills, applying, showing up, trying again and again and still feel like you’re getting nowhere.
I’m frustrated. I’m disappointed. I’m tired of feeling like I have to choose between being practical and pursuing the things I’m passionate about.
But deep down, I know it will all come.
Maybe not in the way I imagined. Maybe not as quickly as I’d hoped. But I know the years of hard work, the skills I’ve built, the experiences I’ve had, and the creativity I carry aren’t for nothing.
So here’s to continuing to show up, even when other people don’t.
To starting again when doors close.
To believing in yourself when things feel uncertain.
And to trusting that eventually, something will click into place.
I’m not giving up on my dreams. ❤️