11/23/2021
This is a very vulnerable post. Also it’s a LONG post, but if me sharing helps even one person than I think that it will be worth it. I can’t share 1 minute yet so I’ll share this as a normal post.
A while ago, I had the epiphany that I might have ADHD. It made a lot of sense of how my brain was so scattered, yet I could hyperfixate on something. I mean I made one candle and then created an entire business from it! However, when I talked to my doctor about this, he said there were other symptoms I displayed that suggested I might be bipolar. I had no idea how to take that in at all. It immediately depresses me and I went into a spiral. I went to a psychiatrist, and he diagnosed me as bipolar 2, adhd, having ptsd, anxiety, and depression. However, I did not feel completely comfortable in his care. Honesty I felt like he was more annoyed than anything and wanted to give me a whole bunch of meds and call it a day. I knew my mental health was something that I had to take absolute care of and so I looked for a second opinion. I got the same diagnosis I felt more safe in my new doctor’s care. She listened to my goals and is working with me to achieve what’s best for this brain of mine.
The amount of support I got from posting about how I was not doing well mentally was overwhelming. People started sharing their stories with me, told me I wasn’t alone, and that they had my back. One lovely fellow candle/soap maker () even sent me a get well gift, which just made my heart so full! Knowing that I’m not alone in this mental health journey truly helped me accept my diagnosis so much easier. I was spiraling and didn’t have a sense of direction. But thankfully I have a wonderful community of people in my life who are so incredibly kind, helpful, and have added to my cup.
If you are struggling, please know you are not alone. Also don’t be afraid to seek help and accept help. And definitely don’t be afraid to seek a second opinion. Your mental wellness is so important and should be trusted to someone who take great care. Be well my friends, thanks for reading if you made it this far.