11/11/2018
This was quite the slap in your face opportunity to get body positive about myself.
Open post alert!
It started with feeling annoyed when I went shopping and clothes wouldn't fit quite right - or couldn't find a style that is 'in fashion' that I really liked - spending ages searching the internet to only return it and the forever nagging feeling that I should make my own clothes. So I started to make clothes for myself, to then find that - out of the packet clothing patterns - fit me about as well as ready to wear clothing from the shops. I was making so many alterations and toiles I was going crazy and getting confused. This was one of the main reasons I went on the pattern drafting course the other week. So I came home all excited and I have played with my basic bodice block and have some patterns coming along nicely. Next stage, try them on. Have you ever stood in front of a mirror, with your toile on and your pins ready and tried to pin alterations? Well ouch, and back to front, and contorting to name a few issues. Next thought, I need a mannequin/dressmakers form. l look into them and realise that they haven't got my rediculously short torso, lack of waist to bust ratio etc etc. Make your own Google said. Luckily my husband and I are DIY fans and a shopping trip later I am armed with several rolls of duck tape, a cheap long t-shirt, cans of expanding foam, foam and fabric scraps and some cling film. Two hours later, relief of Netflix entertainment for the kids, assistance from YouTube and very sore back from standing still and I am cloned. Gosh I wish. Just the body. Close up the neck and arms, fill it up, stick a pole through it and staple a base to it and there she is, my mate Stella. The only problem is, I can't stand her. I have dressed her up to make her look a little better, but all I can see are the bits I don't like about myself and I can't ignore her. I'm drafting a dress for my birthday on Thursday and I need her. Maybe this will help. I think she's even effecting my sewjo. Tips on body positivity please.