20/10/2024
Well it’s been a while, what an understatement! The last time I posted was Christmas 2023 🫠
This past year has been the most heartbreaking of my life. Both my Mum and Dad were diagnosed with cancer, both went through surgery and battled chemo and radiotherapy alongside each other. Amongst this, Lawrence and I were planning our June wedding, not knowing what it was going to look like.
My amazing mum has recently been signed off as cancer free, we are so proud of her resilience through such an awful time.
My lovely Dad passed away in July, 10 months after he fell ill. I was so incredibly lucky that he made it to our wedding day and walked me down the aisle. He was so determined to do this and it’s something that fills my heart with happiness and gratitude everyday when I think of him.
Within 5 months this year, I turned 30, married my best friend and lost my Dad. So tough. I’m still in disbelief that he has gone and we will never see him again. My poor lovely Dad, I miss you beyond words.
Navigating life without him has and still is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. To carry on when you’ve lost such a huge part of your world is just excruciating and surreal. I don’t know how I will cope and what the future looks like but I know my Dad would want me to carry on. He wasn’t one for words but I know he was so proud of my little business and always took an interest in what I was doing.
Despite the upsetting circumstances, I worked so hard to make everything I could for our wedding. I made the napkins, table runners, pompoms, tassels, favours and designed all my own signs, menus, table plan and table names. I handpicked and collected every single napkin cuff, brass vase,tea light, candle stick, piece of furniture and glass vase myself through the 18 months of planning. It was such a stressful period of time but I look back at these photos and smile thinking how we did it all ourselves. I exhausted myself sewing and making for the wedding and with everything else I just had to put everything on hold. Life is never simple, it’s always changing and I’ve had to learn to ride the wave and accept I can’t pour from an empty cup.
I feel now I’m at a stage where I miss my sewing and it’s time to slowly get back into it.I’ll be doing a couple of Christmas fayres this year and you’ll be able to order anything you see you like through here provided there’s stock available. I won’t be taking on any commissions over this period.
Christmas was Dads favourite time of year. Every part of the season reminds me of him and it hurts so much that he won’t be here to do our special traditions anymore. He would be really happy that I am pushing on and doing some fayres despite how hard it’s going to be for me.
If you’re still reading, Thankyou. I like to be open and honest, it helps my messy little brain to cope when I’m struggling. I thought it would be nice to share some wedding photos so you see what we did. It was a day full of so much love, happiness and colour 💖🌈
