05/05/2022
About this day last year, I was busy trying to make a name for my dried flower business Fleurs Séchées. Mother’s day was one of the most celebrated events and I remember my mom then waiting for me to finish my orders so I can prolly spend mother’s day with her? Which I think, I kinda took for granted. After taking this photo, I hurriedly went out to deliver flowers and make other mom’s happy which I know she understands as she have always been supportive of all my dreams and ambitions - - she was after all, my first teacher and the first one who ever trained me to do sales (growing up poor, we used to sell anything we can sell to help Dad put food on our table)
Fast forward to Mother’s Day 2022 - - I never crafted anything, not a single bouquet of flowers is marketed for sale this year.
Should have I known that it was Mom’s last Mother’s day last year, I would have freaking treat her like a queen. 👸
I heard of this old man who said “I always wanted to paint but never have the time, now that I have the time I can no longer paint because of my parkinsons - - how ironic”
How ironic it is, I have cleared up Sunday of this week for mom. Yes! I will have the whole day for her. I have the money now to buy her anything she wants, I will give her the world if I could, but she is no longer here with me physically.
Well I have to give myself a little grace, I wanted to believe that I was able to serve her and give her a better life somehow, tho I wanted to do more for sure.
Is that okay? Am I okay? Most days I am okay, some days I cry alone and never show the world. But I am okay in the sense that I have to - - I have people counting on me and I want to make my momma and daddy proud in heaven.
If you are reading this and you still have your mom and your dad with you, drop everything and spend time with them, show them you love them.
To mom - - I love you always and I miss you in all of my heart beat.
And one day, I will for sure craft another bouquet or arrangements. Until then .. 💐
