02/03/2026
These past months been a lot of health struggles, our marriage, finances and work struggles. With so much I felt it’s so har for cope, I could only hide under my cross stitching coz this doesn’t allow me to overthink, just sew.. it helps in some way.
But slowly, been getting back in the motions with a little push from my customer, which I’m so grateful for her patience and regret for the delay.
Of course one fear I’m facing and loving at the same time is using my new investment, this was something I had dreamed of owning but at a great cost. This baby didn’t come cheap 🙈 it’s more than 3k investment but I was scared to use it! Why? I’m afraid I would break it 😅
But I’m getting out of my comfort zone and love using it, it’s abit of struggle as I’m not familiar with her, but I’m sure in no time, she and I would be great partners. Should I name her? I know it sounds crazy, but I hear people naming their machines 🤔
I also have some reality check, the place I been hoping could be my future shop and home, isnt going to materialize. I spend the past year trying to make it work, and when it all fell apart back in October, I can’t help but feel my world had feel apart. I don’t have a safety net anymore.. it scared me and all I could do is sleep most of the time which I feel was my way of coping. But just in January, someone gave us an option.. I could only pray that it’s what I hope for… a home for our pets who are our babies, a temporary home for at least 3 years for us to strengthen my finances, and open my home studio shop. When all hope is gone, I could only pray 🙏 and turn to handmade as it helps calms me down. How adorable are these little onesies 💕