02/07/2020
Today I’m thirty & I’m thrilled about it. The past ten years have included:
-College & graduation
-14 addresses/places of residence
-4 states (5 if you count DC)
-Finding incredibly special friends in each place. Sometimes it was immediate and other times I was lonely for a really long time before finding my people. They are all so special to me.
-Making some dumb mistakes but learning from them
- Running a marathon (very slowly)
-Going to graduate school.
-Having few panic attacks & learning more about how to handle them
-Starting to go to counseling & healing prayer. Highly recommend both.
-I met my husband at a party.
-We got engaged a few months later.
-We packed up everything we had and drove for 24 hours from Virginia to Houston to start life together.
-We knew no one and it was just the two of us in a tiny, but cute, apartment.
-Split ways after honeymooning in a tropical paradise... I had to take my final exams in Washington.
-Finishing grad school at Georgetown while living in Houston (still haven’t used my degree).
-Adopting a cat & then a dog
-Buying a home
-Starting Cambridge Row even though I had no residential design experience at the time. I had prayed about it for a long time, and while it didn’t make sense in any feasible way, I knew it was the right next step.
-Finding out I was pregnant.
-Giving birth.
-Having a weird labor & then a c-section.
-Nursing for about 2 seconds and realizing that there’s a lot of pressure on new moms.
-Becoming a mother & learning to savor little moments that I normally never slowed down to appreciate.
-Going back to work
-Growing to appreciate all mothers in ways I had never known before.
-Learning to press into the messiness of the day-to-day and to be thankful for even the ongoing, mundane things that the Instagram world doesn’t show (thousands of diapers, late nights, early mornings, laundry piles).
-Moving to Birmingham because of the most unexpected story. It happens to be the place I was born & the city where we were married.
-kept designing in Texas while living in Alabama.
-coming to realize how much joy I find in creating.
It was a decade of wandering, of clumsiness, of hoping & praying, of branching way out of my comfort zone about 1,000 times, and finding provision in the most unusual & unexpected ways. I wasted so much time trying to earn affection; trying to be enough. That only left me exhausted and depleted. If I made it look like I had it together - I’m sorry. I definitely never have! God has been slowly helping me peel back the layers of why I am not defined by anything I’ve accomplished, and also not by my failures (of which there are many- some painfully embarrassing 😂). I hope to lean into savoring relationships, investing in prayer, and the pressing into the joy I find in creating (but also not relying on it as a source of identity or ultimate fulfillment). I long to stay in one place long enough to really dig into our community here - through seasons of both joy and pain.
Cheers to 30! I am really looking forward to it! Not gonna lie, I hope I don’t have to move so many times this go ‘round.
What is/was your favorite part of your 20s or 30s? If we are friends, what’s a fun memory we shared in our 20s?
This pic was taken a month ago. I’m not on a beach right now. It’s cold here and Bryan flu which is not nearly as glamorous. 💃🏻