04/19/2026
I don’t know about you, but I’ve never really had an opportunity to look inside my own heart except those times when I am when examining my behavior, my selfish inclinations, and more than a few times, my own broken heart. Recently I find myself going through some health evaluations and tests, and this past week following yet another, I was scanned and released to get dressed. The tech left the room with my beating heart on the screen, and I must tell you, standing there in a hospital gown watching it for a few moments was profoundly moving. While I’m not unfamiliar with the mechanical workings and the imagery, to see your own organs functioning in real time is a mesmerizing, tear evoking experience.
I did the math. It seems so very miraculous that at my age – 70 years and six-ish months - this fist sized mechanism constructed from two cells contributed by my parents along with some magic “dust of the Earth” has beat more than 2.89 billion times. That’s BILLION guys. From the moments of my microscopic creation to mere pounds of a bawling baby … my infancy, childhood and teenage angst. Through my sassy teenage years and my stubborn selfish young adulthood. During strains of pregnancies, childbirth, marriage, and parenting .. through gut-busting laughter and gut-wrenching sadness, it has sustained my very existence. Whether I gave it a thought or not, the Unseen has kept this rhythm tuned and orchestrated through my sleeping and waking for some 25,747 days now. It is impossible to express my gratefulness with words. The feelings well up in this fleshly woman and near explode.
After I dressed I felt had to capture a few seconds of this fleshly, thumping pump that differentiates an infinitely fine line between my life and death. I want to see it regularly and and remember to appreciate all the things that have been designed to work perfectly in order for me to even exist. I know there is a countdown remaining … whether that be millions or just a handful, I mean to be grateful to The One who numbers every beat.