05/01/2026
I want to share a little truth with you...
The Craft supplies you see me posting about? Well dear lovely, that mountain of delicious, old, dusty, potential filled treasure is what brings me the kind of joy I literally find hard to put into words.
Nobody in their right mind drives seven hours (each way) to buy a dirty old warehouse (see photo) packed full of vintage craft supplies that haven't seen the light of day in close to 30 years.
I did. (And thank goodness my husband believes in me)
I knew it all belonged with me. (Temporarily)
I knew I was the one that could show people how inspiring and magical it could be.
I think even the people who sold it to us thought I might be a little crazy, a little too enthusiastic...
Probably.
The lady who sold me her 93 year old father-n-laws entire retired jewelry making inventory probably thought the same thing.
The crafter with a two car garage packed full of vintage scrapbooking supplies/paper...I'm sure she thought I was nuts too.
But can I tell you something true?
I love each and every bead, scrap and bridesmaid we purchased. I really do.
I've never been happier than when I get to unpack, sort and share these products with you.
But I also have a life-long pattern.
Fear based self-sabotage.
I start something that really matters to me.
I worry that Ill fail, that its stupid, that Im making a mistake.
I stop the thing that makes me happy (craft supplies) and pivot to something that I know will pay the bills.
The pivot is temporary at best because that little voice...the one that dreams of a bigger, happier, more joy-saturated, authentic existence for me...she shows up every single time.
"Heather...what about those amazing craft supplies, the jewelry...the paper and beads and all that gorgeous potential? Why are you ignoring them? You loooooove them Heather...Come back..."
Ugh.
Its true.
I do love them.
So I turn back...again, and I am happy.
And so it goes...pivot, return, pivot, return.
And then this morning something BIG happened (thank you Scorpio full moon);
For some crazy reason, I literally witnessed and recognized my own pattern.
I was about to abandon myself again because I posted 18 items on Etsy in the last two days and got ONE sale.
I told myself I had failed.
Thats how fast this happens for me.
Until today.
I saw it. I felt it happen in real time and I caught it before it took hold and dragged me into the abyss and away from the thing I love.
Not this time.
This time I choose me.
I choose Alignment.
Joy.
I choose dusty craft supplies.
I share this truth because I know this happens to SO many of us.
We choose safety over authentic happiness.
We need to stop that.
We need to have a littke faith in ourselves.
We need to believe that the thing that keeps calling us back is THE thing that deserves our steady and intentional attention. We need to let our hearts follow the nudge and stick with the "maybe" and "what if???"
No more self-sabotage
See it.
Name it.
Pause.
Release it.
Its time. I promise you that patterns like this are meant to be broken and set free. Your joy lives just on the other side of that fear.
Believe in you.
I do.
And if you need me, well, I'll be sorting through some delicious and dusty old craft supplies that have been patiently waiting for my attention.
Love,
Heather
