05/10/2026
Life imitates art.
In college I had a therapist who once gave me a cutting of one of her plants. She told me that how well this plant was doing would be a reflection of how I was doing.
Once I made the decision that it was time to finish this sweater, I realized that my ability to work on it these past few months reflected how I was doing personally.
On the day before Thanksgiving, my mother told me that she had been struggling to find a brown cardigan. I took this as a challenge—I started shopping for the right shade of brown and looked through sooo many patterns feeling intimidated by most on Thanksgiving night, and went to Michaels the next day to pick up the yarn. I didn’t know it at the time, but I was (technically, not legally) 1 week pregnant.
I was knitting this sweater during my first day of work on December 8. I was knitting this sweater while trying to keep calm, just a week later, when I found out I was pregnant and had to fight with my OBGYN clinic to be seen. I was knitting this sweater 2 days later on December 17 when my release started as I lied in bed, while the pain was still bearable. Once it intensified, the sweater lied in my bed just as I did, barely moving. And as my emotional pain intensified in the coming days, weeks, and months, the sweater barely moved from my floor, seeing everything.
This sweater saw me through a lot of MF life. It’s always hard to give away projects I put work into, but I think this one may have been my baby. I thank her for her extreme patience and unconditional love.
This is for the OG Plant Mama, for whom I added the special touches of pockets and a Monstera leaf. Sending love to all forms of moms, especially those that are single, mother figures, have had abortions/pregnancy losses, or are struggling with their current reality. It’s okay not to feel happy on a holiday, but I hope you can create some happiness for yourself.
