02/25/2026
I don’t usually post my writings here, but I thought this one fit. I wrote it at least 5 to 7 years ago, but it explains how
Memorabeadia it’s not a business. It’s a ministry.
People say ,
if you want something to happen in your life ,
you got to make it happen.
Sometimes ,
that works,
and sometimes ,
life happens.
There are times ,
that you can make things happen ,
you can get that degree ,
you can get a good job…..
But sometimes ,
it’s only when others reach out and help you.
This idea that we can make things happen ,
it’s only true when there’s others willing to give you a hand.
Now that might mean ,
having someone take your kids for an hour a week ,
so that you can get some studying done,
That might mean All kinds of things.....
Why am I going on this way,
because sometimes ,
no matter what ,
I can’t make something happen.
I’m going to vent for a moment.
You see ,
I was a single mom for 10 years with four kids.
I had only a high school diploma ,
and what a lot of people didn’t know was ,
I have a learning disability.
At times ,
I took jobs that people said were beneath me ,
or ,
I didn’t take the ones they thought I should.
There were times ,
I took smaller jobs ,
when living in public housing ,
so I could gain my strength ,
because on top of being a single mom ,
I was also fighting arthritis and fibromyalgia.
But I made it through.
Sometimes by my self,
sometimes with help.
I had people look at me funny ....,
because there were others in the development ,
that they were putting in their hours in habitat ,
So they could have a home ,
and going to college ,
and working a full-time job ,
And the look they were giving me was ,
what’s wrong with you.
And sometimes ,
I wonder the same thing, …
but sometimes ,
we have to do what we can do ,
no matter what other people think we could or should do.
Many of you know ,
that I had a very good job ,
that I had to quit,
because I developed PittedAdema, …
Which can go into congestive heart failure.
I’ve been away from that job about five years now.
I still deal with my leg swelling ,
and there were times ,
that I can’t do everything I want to do ,…
but I do what I can.
I was hoping that a jewelry business would take off ....
it didn’t .....
I was hoping knitting and weaving business would take off,
they haven’t.
Sometimes I get discouraged, …
I have people tell me ,
that I put too much detail into my work,
Or
I don’t put enough detail in my work.,
Or ,
my stuff is for special occasions ,
and unless we’re hitting the right occasion it doesn’t work.
I’ve been told ,
that my work is very nice,
and sometimes
I question that.
I’ve had people tell me I need to be on Facebook more often ,
I need to do more Craft Show’s ,
I need to get out there more ,
I need to go online,
I need a website,
I need this ,
I need that. ....
And in the midst of all of that,
i’ve had life happen.
In the past five years ,
I helped a cousin care for her father ,
because he was dying from cancer ,
I helped in the care of my father-in-law,
who had been on dialysis for seven years ,
then helped care for my own Father....,
sat with a daughter of a dear friend ,
who after being taken off of life support live three more days,
I sat with one of my seniors ,
and talk to her ,
while she waited for her daughter to come ,
and then sang at her funeral,..
Now I’m preparing to sit with another friend so she’s not alone at the end.
Some say ,
I take on too much …
and sometimes I do.
I sit back at times and I say,
I can weave ,
and I can do glassware,
and I can do jewelry ,
and .....
I don’t get to do as much as I would like......
I know that I have abilities,
but sometimes ,
no matter what your ability are….
you have to take care of Life.
I’m realizing that at 60 ,
what I do ....
is not a business,
it is a ministry.
I’ve been told ,
I don’t charge enough for what I do, …
if it was a business …
they are right,
But,
Because it’s a ministry,
I get paid with smiles and tears of joy.
Sometimes ,
it’s hard ,
when we’re counting pennies ,
and trying to make ends meet,
then .....
you’re asked to do something that you know isn’t going to make any money,
but you throw up your arms and you go .....
OK , ……
God ,
whatever you want me to do.
It is hard, ....
it is hard To get through life sometimes,
it is hard to see a dream that you wanted not come true......
and yet....
I have more than I’ve ever dreamed of.
I have a home
with a new roof and new windows,
my health is probably better than it’s been in a long time, ....
and I know ,
that I know ,
there is A God in heaven ,
who has love me enough to stretch me at times...
even put me in some pain,
so that nothing I go through would break me.
At the end of the day looking back at everything ....
I am blessed.
If you need something in the future to bless somebody ,
call me,
I would love to help.
In the meantime,
I’ll be having fun with a grandson,
and enjoying as much time as I can with my dear friend ,
for as long as I can.
Thank you for letting me vent.
By MSM
