Beyond the Grave Curios

07/06/2024

05/12/2024

Went out in the rain with Mabel today and took some photos 🍁

03/30/2024

Art is on pause for a bit. Currently have a concussion on top of my prior TBI so darkness and puppies are my best friends.

This was my last project I’ve been working on…

Puppies for tax…

02/01/2024

Getting some help with my recurve bow from my service pupper…

01/21/2024

“Untitled”
-Elian E
Jan. 2024

I have a lot to say about this piece so interpret as you may. I haven’t titled it.

[Img Description: A stylized digital art piece of a skull in rainbow colors]

12/13/2023

“This One’s For The Girls (read: Boys)”
Elian E.
Dec. 2023

I painted this after the song of the same name popped into my head. I was thinking about an old family photo somewhere that my mother probably still has that is no longer funny now that I’ve come out. Now that I’ve chopped off my hair with scissors and my parents have been ashamed dragging me places trying to explain I’m actually a girl I just look like this. I wish every parent could look at an 8 year old who wears a GAP adults suit jacket to school every day with their uniform skirt and begs to wear a tie and not say “sure Avril Lavigne wears a tie” but get the bigger picture.

I was never Avril Lavigne. I never wanted to be. I just knew I wasn’t a girl.

[Img. Description: a black and white painting young child dressed in oversized men’s shirt and boots . They have long curly hair and a concerned expression. They are wearing a red and black striped hat and properly fitted pants. The background is shaded teal and orange with yellow dripping down. The artist’s signature, EFE, is in the bottom right corner in yellow.]

12/03/2023

“Marinating”
Elian E.
Dec. 2023

[Img. Description: a black canvas with a stylized white jar painted on it. In the jar there is a brain. The brain is rainbow at the top but at the bottom the halves become dark blue and dark red. The artist’s signature EFE is painted in white in the bottom right corner.]

11/10/2023

“A Temporary Solution to a Permanent Problem”
Elian E.
Nov. 2023

[Image Description:

An orange painted canvas with black in the center.

A stylized painting of a pill bottle is slightly off center to the left. The pill bottle is white, orange, and red and carved into the black part of the canvas with a knife.

The artists signature is painted EFE at the bottom right corner in black.]

11/10/2023

“The absence of light.”
Elian E.
Nov. 2023

I’ve been doing art to combat insomnia recently.

This piece I did tonight/this morning to me is about the grieving process I’m encountering with my disabilities and learning how to live life again.

[Image Description: A black canvas with white raised braille writing. The writing reads “The absence of light” in the corner is the artists signature EFE, also in braille]

10/09/2023

TW: DV, trauma, and abuse/CSA

I posted this today last year on my personal page with no context as tensions between myself and my father grew. I’m no longer afraid to speak about what was happening for fear of retaliation. May my words reach whoever needs to hear them.
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This piece was made after I was blocked by my father for posting a piece of art that for me was about my transition and the cruelty I had endured by his wife, my molestor. He asked me to take it down or he would never be speaking to me again. He told me that he was the only one who loved me and supported me and I knew that and if I wanted his support I would remove it. This came with more onslaughts of abuse and anger.

I had already removed it but apologized and told him I loved him and posted something with photos of both of us and a quote from a song. For anyone who knows what abuse is like appeasing someone who hurts you to win their love back is a confusing process but feels so necessary at times.

Within several weeks of this apology he was back to screaming and insults every time we were on the phone. Everything was my fault. I was negative constantly. He didn’t know why I bothered calling.

One night I called panicked. My dad knows cars. I thought I would ask him what to do.

My battery had died.

My stepmother answered the phone instead and my stomach dropped and I instantly hung up and started crying. Within 30 minutes I got a call from my dad screaming at me about how I was making his life miserable and ruining his life and his marriage and why couldn’t I just do anything right for once and that was the beginning of the end of our relationship.

My dad had about one or two good weeks and apologized and even admitted to the things that happened in my childhood and said he would be better. I begged him to get himself help and he said he would.

At this moment I have initiated a restraining order due to multiple requests for no contact and him contacting me through multiple other people including using stories of children dying of addiction to try to get me to contact him. Anyone who knows me personally knows I’m in recovery and I cannot force recovery on anyone but I pray for others.

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Currently my prayers are with anyone else who may be affected by abuse and unable to leave for whatever reason. It may seem trivial but I give you my strength and my thoughts and love from where I am. And I wish you the best day you can possibly have and to live to see tomorrow.

Some day a better day will come ❤️

09/26/2023

My spooky collection for my chair is growing.

Credits to:

Free Patch Club by Jelly for the beautiful work.

Check back soon! I’m working on some flash ideas and a custom spooky tattoo for the best month🎃👻🪦

(Halloween month…)

09/09/2023

Just got these beautiful pieces from fellow artist Free Patch Club by Jelly !!

Definitely going on my new wheelchair (and they smell like pumpkins) just in time for spooky season 🎃